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Flake and Bake
Nov. 13th, 2006 09:10 pmOkay. What I'm about to write about is going to make me come across as a total flake. I know this. I'm trying hard to convince even myself that I'm really not this flaky.
But here's the thing. I already know I don't want this job. Yes, I've only been there three days, but I know this is more than just your standard beginning of job loathing. This is far beyond that. I took this job because I knew I was probably going to get laid off anyway, the hours were good, and the pay is decent. But it takes me in a completely different direction than where I really want to go with my career. I wish I had figured that out a little bit sooner because now I'm not sure what to do.
Here's the thing. I've been thinking for a good couple of years of enrolling in Buff State's Student Personnel Administration program because I really would like to work at a college (yes, Julie, even despite all that I hear you and John complain about those damn college students). The timing just never seemed right. Well, now the timing will never be right, but it might be about as good as it's going to be for me to enroll this fall.
Now I could potentially keep this job full-time and go part-time to school, but with the baby, I don't really want to drag this out into a three or four year degree over which time I will not see a whole heck of a lot of my firstborn. So really, I know I'm going to wind up quitting this job that I don't even like sooner or later, at least by the time that fall semester starts.
So I'm potentially thinking that it would be better to just cut out, in as professional a way as I can, now so that I really don't need to put this on my resume. As far as I'm concerned only the IRS need know I was ever there. I don't need another short-term position on my record. It looks bad enough already. I just spotted what would be an excellent part-time job for me in the paper yesterday. Of course, I don't know that I'd get it, but it's something that would be ideal to be doing while I do this degree. And meanwhile, I have no qualms about doing some seasonal retail work at Target or something, with or without some other job. Lord knows I could use the discount since we shop there so damn much.
This isn't 100% decided. John and I have been discussing this and I suppose I should hold out a couple more days at least to really feel this out. But I feel so completely flaky and I know I'm not really like that. I've stayed on too long at crappy jobs in the past out of a sense of obligation. For once I should do right by myself, and this may be the way to do it.
But honestly, I could use some input. Be kind.
But here's the thing. I already know I don't want this job. Yes, I've only been there three days, but I know this is more than just your standard beginning of job loathing. This is far beyond that. I took this job because I knew I was probably going to get laid off anyway, the hours were good, and the pay is decent. But it takes me in a completely different direction than where I really want to go with my career. I wish I had figured that out a little bit sooner because now I'm not sure what to do.
Here's the thing. I've been thinking for a good couple of years of enrolling in Buff State's Student Personnel Administration program because I really would like to work at a college (yes, Julie, even despite all that I hear you and John complain about those damn college students). The timing just never seemed right. Well, now the timing will never be right, but it might be about as good as it's going to be for me to enroll this fall.
Now I could potentially keep this job full-time and go part-time to school, but with the baby, I don't really want to drag this out into a three or four year degree over which time I will not see a whole heck of a lot of my firstborn. So really, I know I'm going to wind up quitting this job that I don't even like sooner or later, at least by the time that fall semester starts.
So I'm potentially thinking that it would be better to just cut out, in as professional a way as I can, now so that I really don't need to put this on my resume. As far as I'm concerned only the IRS need know I was ever there. I don't need another short-term position on my record. It looks bad enough already. I just spotted what would be an excellent part-time job for me in the paper yesterday. Of course, I don't know that I'd get it, but it's something that would be ideal to be doing while I do this degree. And meanwhile, I have no qualms about doing some seasonal retail work at Target or something, with or without some other job. Lord knows I could use the discount since we shop there so damn much.
This isn't 100% decided. John and I have been discussing this and I suppose I should hold out a couple more days at least to really feel this out. But I feel so completely flaky and I know I'm not really like that. I've stayed on too long at crappy jobs in the past out of a sense of obligation. For once I should do right by myself, and this may be the way to do it.
But honestly, I could use some input. Be kind.
